there's this unspoken distance between us and it seems like we both feel it. our conversations only drag us through the motions of who we are. there is so much i want to say to you but my pride keeps me from even attempting to start. and then there's the realization that my words would fall on deaf ears just as it has in recent years passed, so why bother? even in darkness, i tether myself to a glimmer of hope that one day soon things will be different. i find myself reluctantly holding on to the thought that things will only go up from here but yet every time i open myself up to embracing the idea that it's possible, we fall even further. i have faith in you. i believe in you. i wish for once, you could do the same.